Progress, not perfection

I'm starting to notice little things, subtle changes and improvements. I'm getting better, both physically and mentally. I think they help reinforce each other.

Physically, I'm noticing that my back doesn't hurt as much. I can stand for longer periods of time. When we went hiking on Saturday, I didn't have to stop and rest as often, and my leg only started to get that numbness - it went away when I sat down, instead of staying with me through the hike. I may be finally turning the corner. I went back to the chiropractor for the first time in a year, and this time, I think it's helping.

Feeling better physically seems to help me emotionally as well. I'm not as depressed, probably because now there's hope. I can heal my back. And that means I can increase my activity. I can walk again, hike again! I love being able to exercise again.

I saw the results of my 360 assessment last week. I had taken one at the start of my leadership program last year - these were the results from the end (finally!). What a different attitude I had! This time, I jumped to the comments section. Last time, I avoided it for a week. This time, I laughed when I saw these comments "She's a good listener" from one reviewer and "She needs to listen better" from another. Tells me that I can pretty much ignore specific results and focus on the trends. Ha! Last year I would have had a very hard time reading anything critical; now, I know it's just an opinion (and mine is the one that counts!).

I still go up and down. The reorganization at work is still dragging on. Looks like I didn't get the branch head position I applied for. And, I'm ok with it. The way the reorg is going, I'm not sure I want it!